I feel absolutely pathetic. I hardly qualify to be a drama queen though. It’s just that no matter how nice and cheerful I want to be, there are simply days that I feel down and lonely. And the past few days has been really excruciatingly lonely for me.
You know hubby and I had been together for more than a decade. There were certain times when we were apart, as he often gets a lot of traveling opportunities because of his job. The longest we’ve been apart was 6 months. Majority of his trips are just within 1-2 weeks time frame. So I’m pretty much used to it now.
So I find it so weird that when he left last Sunday for a week long conference in the Philippines, I found myself holding back tears. For real. Lol. I felt like a baby and I barely managed to restrain myself from crying coz I know my daughter will see me and that will make her really sad.
I dunno. Perhaps its just hormones or whatever. But I just feel lonely and half-empty without him. Not even calling and texting him daily made me feel a little better. I’m counting the days till he comes back again, and I’m pretty sure I’ll be back to normal by then.
Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine